Up-dated April 2, 1999
This world once stood
Quite peaceful and calm
There was no violence
With knives, guns and bombs.
There were no drugs,
No needles, No pills,
No child abuse or oil spills.
There were no problems
That needed solutions,
The air was not filled
With dirty pollution.
There was no extinction
For animals to fear,
No nature was destroyed,
The trees were all here.
There was no sickness
Or STD risks,
Jealousy and hatred
Just did not exist.
There was no sadness,
nor crying, no doubt,
There was not one issue
to worry about.
No suicides, homicides,
pregnancies, drug-busts,
No high-jacking, riots,
Racial wars, handcuffs.
This world once stood
Quite peaceful and calm,
That is until we came along.
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Great Gatsby Land
I spent the evening with Gatsby in hand,
And read of his dreams and feared for his plan.
I soon fell asleep, as the nature of man.
I awoke as a guest in Great Gatsby Land.
There was laughter and casual embrace,
As strangers sought answers in Case after Case.
The music was mellow, the medley was grand.
For such is the life in Great Gatsby Land.
Our host stood searching, not seeing the crowd,
Or hearing his story as told aloud,
By a knowing authority, bent to his task,
Of pouring truth from his empty flask.
And I mingled and spoke when I had the chance.
And I danced with the ladies in the days of Romance.
And then I awoke, none the worse for the wear.
Found my place in the book and started reading from there.
Submitted by: R. Neal
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LOVE
It is said to be a strong feeling of affection, devotion, and concern for one another.
But I don't believe in this definition.
I do believe in the devotion among us.
Some people think love is just a word.
But for me I think it is a word that combines you to me.
The meaning of love according to me is the affection I have for you.
And I hope you have the same feelings for thee.
As I look at you I see that you are not single.
But that does not mean we can't flirt constantly.
And if you do decide to be single Let me know and it will tingle.
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NO
I wanted to be loved, but you didn't love me.
I wanted to cuddle, you pushed me off.
I guess that means you do not love me.
I tried to do the things a couple would do.
But things always went wrong according to you.
So now I see we are not fit for each other,
I guess that means we cannot be friends.
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lost in a daydream
a surrealistic world
where everything's in place
snap back to reality
can't pull myself out of the grave
that I've landed in
the complexity of emotions, spilling
like a waterfall
in my mind
surrendering to the world
that I left behind not too long ago
sinking in the quicksand beneath me
my destiny arises; I cannot escape
I fell for the illusion
that I could walk away unshaken
but it didn't happen that way
they say you can never go back
but I did
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A Journey's Dream
By Darnell Eppley
Riding down the back roads, thinking every mile
Remembering when I had it all and how you use to smile.
Wishing how I could turn back the hands of time, bringing back a love, that most will never find.
Searching for you with every passing car, believing in my heart you haven't gotten far.
Hoping that it's not too late to repair your heart and soul, to touch a place that still forgives beneath the darkened holes.
Oh how I long to hold you near and erase away the pain, for what a fool I must have been to have hurt you once again.
Running out of places that I thought you might have been, driving on in hopes of finding you at the end.
As days go by I'm so afraid it much to late for me.
But through it all I only hope that someday it might can be, that love can change your state of mind and mend a broken heart, and give to me another chance to surely do my part.
Still riding around searching for you knowing I've lost it all, I'm going home and pray that her love will make the call.
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football
by lil zimmy
green grass is all round
the sounds of people cheering
deafens ears to the point of bleeding
lining up to the line of scrimmage
getting in a three point stance
waiting for the ball to go through
the sacred art of being snapped
so the main man the quarterback
can deliver the ball to
who ever is brave enough
to take the challenge
for the opportunity to prove
them self
its adrenaline pumping
heart thumping
bone crushing action
that's football.
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**GONE**
She takes the blade and wants to die.
Put it to her skin as she starts to cry.
Would rather be anywhere--
Anywhere but here.
All of her problems flow from her veins.
No problem or blood in her remains.
She feels her spirit lifting out of herself.
As she falls, her head hits a shelf.
She's dead--that's all--no more life.
She cannot live any more--will not become someone's wife.
Her body lay in a wooden box.
All of her mourners cry for their loss.
The day she was buried it rained; it poured.
She, the lost loved one, would always be adored.
As her casket was lowered into the ground,
The reason for her suicide was never found.
--Meri Q
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White roses in an emerald sky
black roses in a crimson sea
the emerald sky
the crimson sea
black roses
white roses
a blue dragon flying in a emerald sky
a blue dragon swimming
in a crimson sea
white roses
black roses
purple moon's rise
from the crimson sea
a blue dragon sits
weeping
white and black
black and white.
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THE EAST AND THE WEST
AS I STAND HERE SURROUNDED BY TWO WALLS,
TO MY KNOWLEDGE.
I STAND HERE TO DECIDE MY OWN FATE.
I STAND HERE TO DECIDE WHICH SIDE TO TAKE.
I GO THROUGH ALL THE DETAILS IN MY MIND.
IN TIME, I WILL HAVE TO DECIDE WHICH WALL TO BREAK DOWN.
I STAND ALMOST FOREVER AND I FINALLY STAND UP FOR MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.
I STAND UP FOR MYSELF.
I DECIDE TO BREAK DOWN THE WALL IN THE EAST,
WHERE EVERYTHING IS KNOWN TO BEGIN. I STAND THERE WAITING FOR IT TO FALL.
I STILL STAND IN BETWEEN EACH WALL. AS THE EAST ONE FALLS;
I GO TO STAND IN THE EAST. AS I STAND THERE FOR A MOMENT, I LOOK INTO THE WEST.
AND THAT WALL BEGINS TO FALL, WHERE EVERYTHING IS KNOWN TO END.
FOR WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE EAST AND THE WEST.
FOR WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD NEVER MEET, AND
FOR WHAT I THOUGHT COULD BE THE ULTIMATE BEST.
THOSE TWO WALLS ON EITHER SIDE WERE
CONNECTED DOWN THE LINE, AND TOGETHER FELL DOWN IN TIME.
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Magnovox TV's, cars and there shocks
I see the gleam, seems to me
There are falsity of society
Meant to lie to me, lye for me
So i my walk over your inharmonious rhythms,
This world, it's uses are my priSONS
No sun shall come,
Send coming has came and gone
perhaps this the dark before the dawn,
Light at the end of the tunnel,
Emerging from the rubal to huble
Resurrection is not impossible
Hope must live on.
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An Unknown World
the jungle a bath of heat
booming of a million bees
steamy earth with decaying coconuts
damply rotten and full of insects
creepers, broken trunks, twigs, thorns
added to the destruction
warmth radiated hot dust
cold ocean water all around
colors drained the buildup of clouds
the dark blood staining the sand
trembling beneath the heat haze
this place is getting dirty
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Apartments
Sirens filled the night air
dark and crispy
with fright
Neighbors yelled
and screamed
louder
than the outside
noise
Orange, and red
charcoaled the
dirt
ditches lined
the field
flames tall
as the sky
loud!loud!loud!
Fire
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silent petals,
known only to his soul
gently drift and fall against this tile
stained with the notes of another love
(crushed velvet against a gray sky)
silent petals
of his soul
gently drift and gall against the cold ground
so finely attached to salvaged sandals she treasures
so dearly
and these silent petals
swim through her hair
an ocean deep in color
its waves reflect
(crushed velvet against another gray sky)
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Where
Where have the leaves gone
Where have the trees gone
Where has my life gone.
nothing seems important anymore
since you left and slammed the door
I will never forget you, What wit
Where have you gone
where has the rain gone
nothing lasts anymore
I think someone's knocking at the door
but who is it for.
Where have you been
will you ever come back again
what has happened to me
MIKE SHOCKENCY
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Innocence
Muffled footsteps,
Across a gleaming path,
Glittering with natures own lace,
Quietly calculating a decisions aftermath,
A decision made in haste,
To path converge a single walk,
Creating a wooded crosswalk,
Each aware of the other,
Not that far from each other,
They share a common emotion,
As they sit near the frothy ocean,
Their devotion,
Then a kiss,
Simple bliss!
Now they have kissed,
It was not terribly dramatic, but it did exist,
The sweet innocence of young love.
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Black
Black is the color of death
Black is the color of night
Black is the color of clouds around me
Black is the color of fright
Black is the color of my sadness
Black is the color of my fear
When I sense darkness here
Black is the color of my thoughts
When someone hurts you so
Black is the color of anger
When you cant let that someone go
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We walk as one
At the crack of the dawn that is where you may find me
Walking amongst the rain, sun, hail, and snow
I am not afraid for truth is by my side
We walk as one
With every step
I pray for you as well as the world
Wishing you well, wishing you, what, I wish for myself
We walk as one
The sun behind my ear
The wind beneath my nose
The cold within my lungs
We walk as one
By now my fingers are numb from the cold
It is the end of winter
Ashy cracks build a tent on my knuckles
Concerned about the blood that drips down my middle finger, I am not
Concerned about you, I am
We walk as one
When will you realize that I am your son
You have created me
Now, you are scared of me
We walk as one
My kinky, dry, hair, blows in the fierce winds
And you ask... will it be cut
I say, indeed it will, when you find yourself
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For
Have you ever found a man
Who held his scissors
As if it was his heart
Slipping his fingers in the eyes
Of the perfect twin metal
He does with no thought
Mindfulness cannot be found
In him
He begins chopping the hair
As if it were his enemy
He takes off more than is needed
By now my right ear is filled with his anger
In the mirror, before me, I see my youth dying
Saline waters fill my eyes
With so much love in my heart
I have for the uncompassionate
I blink
And it begins to rain
Bags filled with tears fall to my arms
I cup my fingers together
Bring my hands as one
I hold the hairy liquid
In the center of my being
And realize what has become of the world
I do not swallow
I gargle then spit
For this immorality
Must stay for a moment
An imprint on the soul
I know walk with . . .
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Gravity
Gravity is the source of my depression,
For it holds me down without consent.
Like shackles on my feet,
It keeps me from my dreams of flight.
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Misery
Why do I love you?
I don't even know
You've broken my heart so many times
Shattered it again and again
Even before it is mended
Why do I believe in you?
Your manipulative lying ways, never to die away
You who would have an affair in the blink of an eye
Playing host to diseased strumpets
Dying for and because of cheap thrills
Why do I put up with you?
shattering my life with your deceptive ways
Drinking away their future, wagering away our lives
Blue and black contusions on their sad faces
Giving away our lives for instant gratification
Still I love you
Still I put up with your devilish ways
Still I believe you'll change for me
Now I fall deeper into this condemned pit
Deeper in my denial than ever before
For now I am no more....
I've put an end to my misery
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My weakening mind begins to fail me and all the memories start to disappear.
I am no longer a man.
I am becoming a mere shadow.
All that was is now a blur and with every lost memory a part of me goes too.
Silence overcomes me, as I have nothing left to say
I have nothing left.
How much longer will I remember who I am?
How much longer will I continue to exist?
A rage ignites my heart, but the cause is lost.
My heart beats with the anger of frustration and defeat.
But as fast as the anger rises it vanishes into nothingness
All dreams and expectations are no longer here.
The death of a mind is here and in my last thoughts I wonder....
How many more minds are lost?
-Juan Saldivar (Silver Rage)
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Brother
By Dave Rollins
I wanted to be like you.
Many were the paths I followed with you.
There was one path,
Reason prevented me from following.
Now that you've followed the path,
Going our separate ways.
The chasm between us grows wide and deep.
How can I call you back?
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MASOCHISTIC ME
the agony of thrill
the defeat of victory
the thrill of agony
the victory of defeat
it's all about me
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You can call me blind
Or you an call me deaf
Yet those are only words
From the mouths of the unloved
I am aware
My eyes are open wide
And my ears are cleared
Will you force me to listen to your repetitive sermons?
Until my eyes are dried and my ears bloody
Or will you hide me from the lust
The lust that I desire from the enemy
Or will you hide me from the violence
The awareness that would fulfill my curiosity
Hide me
Ban me
Forbid me
Yet--
When you unlock the iron clad doors to release me
I will have been freed by the beloved enemy
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You are my best friend, The only true one
I love you so much
For all you have done
You are my best friend, My closest one ever
All of the others
Won't even endeavor
You are my best friend, We talk on the phone
Some of my actions
You won't ever condone
You are my best friend, You're always there
Even with things
That you just can't bear
You are my best friend, I care for you
Even when
My mind is askew
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I cried last night, because you were hanging
I looked at your body, my mind started banging
I cried last night, cause I had lost him
The entire thought was totally grim
I cried last night, I read your letter
you thought it was good, thought it was better
I cried last night, cause you'd never return
My hopes are, in hell you won't burn
I cried last night, cause you took the pill
The pill that made you, incredibly ill
I cried last night, why couldn't you learn
I cry all the time, my heart will yearn
I'm still crying today, it will stay this way
You thought that your pain, would just go away.....But it won't
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Empty
To taste
To feel
To touch
To know
I am lost in ecstasy...
To think
To dream
To want
To be
All I've ever known...
More...than me...
To desire
To need
To care
To see
Blind...the dark
Finally...
Chained inside
I am free
Chained inside
I am free...
All is me...
All is nothing
Empty
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~~Cairo Road~~
By: Cherie' North
I walk the decaying brick streets
Sapphire and ruby leaves are silently crushed under my shoes
Pulled from the dying fingers of the trees
And my senses are drowned in the endless insect coes
Still the night floats on a pillow of mist and dreams...
White stars are scattered on the surface of puddles
While all the closed shops are clothed in shadow
And the breeze whistles silent riddles
Through the leaves of the sleeping willow
I walk, still, half-asleep until the sun rises from its bed of embers...
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Myself
By:Joan Damian
The world moves on in a blur
I see it right before my eyes
But I stay
I choose not to, but I am not able
I just can't go along...
Can't seem to keep up with the pace
It's much too fast and I am left behind
Left alone in the darkness of my thoughts
The vast emptiness
Swallows me whole
And depression starts to sink in
Staring deep into space
I try to see what's not there
I try to find the reasons why
But I am left with no answers
Feeling restless and unsure of myself
I begin to realize
That i have been defeated
By a power I can't contest
A fire I can't desist
A prevailing force I can't push away
My foe...my enemy...myself.
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Sometimes in life we think without speaking,
not knowing that the words cut like knives.
Other times we don't speak at all;
Afraid to show too much and fear the possible hurt if we share too much of ourselves.
We sometimes forget that we are an important part of another person's life.
In this world that we live in, there is no perfection.
Not in life, not in love, not in ourselves.
I believe that the key to happiness is the ability to look past those flaws,
with an open mind and an open heart.
Try to see what is beyond the surface and truly appreciate them for everything,
both good and bad.
Each day that passes, we learn a little more and learn how to love a little more...
and there is nothing that I'd re\ather have more that to have you beside me..
Loving, and learning...together...
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Wet Kiss.
Saturn with his balls cut off
castrated,
emasculated
father time with scythe in hand
the grim reaper
time castrating us all
and making all our efforts futile.
Without dreams or hope
the poet is left with nothing
but his acid and his bile
with which to etch his thoughts
upon the wall of time
yet
they will not rhyme
nor have they meaning.
All is a wet kiss, all is gibberish.
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Olio without Oleo
I met an azure arab
underneath the sea
his hair was ebony midnight
and filled with silver stars
his face was alabaster
and his eyes were golden suns.
He sat,
the azure arab,
upon a crimson throne,
and he was reading,
in the quiet shadows,
from an ancient tome.
I thought I met an azure arab
underneath the sea,
perhaps a dream, or omen,
or a portent of things to be.
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Spring Cleaning Vow
1st I will boil myself sanitary
scald off any skin you
might have touched
I will rinse my ears w/ Draino
scrub
my hands w/ Brillo
shave off my goatee
Then I will rinse in cold water till I tremble
& my skin is an appropriate blue
I will write on my body in toothpaste & wine
recipes on making mistakes & eating them too
I will clean up after you for the last time
I will walk into walls till I learn I'm not a ghost
I will breathe bleach till my thoughts come clean
I will fast till I'm hungry
Then I will eat till I'm bigger than you
Walter Arlington Nov 98
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Cool recess from the nine year war and eldest song for childish dreams and the feast by the arched shoulders of the sea. Thereat the procession of the laborious dream...... with my semblance to the fatten stream of the sea.. ..... thereat displaying cool recess. In here the moon and her train smiles at me while dismayed in happy-sadness my reason is snapping and in my trappings they're mad... borne the diadem sun in the caged city......... ...smuggled in hunger reigns...thereat decry the faithful convection and by shade of youngest song i find ancient instruction.
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CINNAMON
You are the one
flawless and impeccable
I recite you like a book
you walk as if on air with wings of gold on your back
Privilege, is being able to just touch you
and feel your exquisite power run through my empty body
I feel myself heighten as the empty void that once smothered me
is now filled with pleasure and stimulation
while everyone else is colourless you, you shine like the heavens
i weep at your beauty, and sigh at your smell
if only you could comprehend my love for you
but wait i shall because you are the ONE
and watching you from afar is pure enough to further my existence
forever
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"A Scholastic Paradox"
-Oh...Homework.
Such a great and terrible thing!
You can improve the greatest minds,
Or confuse the clearest thinker.
-But I think,
(Which is not good)
That you don't hold as much power
as your mighty dispenser,
The Teacher!
-Oh...Teacher.
Such a great and terrible person!
You can improve the greatest minds,
Or confuse the clearest thinker.
-But I think,
(Which is VERY good)
That you don't hold as much power
as the truckloads you give,
Homework!
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MY ANGEL
I fly into the sky
into the big, fluffy clouds
and see an angel appear before me.
The angel takes my hands
and tells me they'll never let go.
It's funny in a way,
because I feel so secure
away from all pain.
The angel turns me around
and kisses my forehead,
so sweetly and gentle.
And when I finally look up,
I look up to see
the most beautiful brown eyes,
the brown eyes of my loved one.
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This is the only content way to sing my joy. If this is the imperial love that I can understand why to love, then let this be. I was once lost, and now I am found, and I shall be forever be yours. Lost in space, I was free, but lonely. Let go of the pain, and believe in the shame that you can bring upon me.
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You Never Knew
You never knew how much I loved you
You never had a clue
If you had known the way I felt about you
You wouldn't have left me so blue.
You never heard me crying in the night
You never saw those tears
You never noticed the hurt deep inside me
That I felt for so many years.
You never planted the seed in your heart
To let a love between us grow
And now the only thing I regret
Is that I never let you know.
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Parking
In the front seat, on a back street, sits a woman in a child.
She sits with her lips perched in a smile.
Only four years ago she could be wild and free-now she struggles to look at one of life's mysteries.
She turns to the window and watches the door.
Outside is still something her heart wrestles for.
She sways backwards, sideways, and leans-then she giggles to hide all her insecurity.
She wants passion, and comfort, and familiarity-
But no one can listen, to a girl this lonely.
He looks at the front seat, from the back street, at the woman by his side.
He'll touch her, and hold her, and rise her strengh to get by.
He holds her still when she fidgets with shame, "Hush now, Sweetie"-
Then he calls her name...
He kisses her tears and rest firmly by her side.
........A girl this lonely needs an angel to stand by.......
In the front seat, on a back street, two lips collide-
Somewhere beneath the moonlight,
love saves her life.
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"When I saw You"
When I saw you
I saw everything wonderful in you
I saw the light in your eyes
The love in your heart
The warmth in your smile
When I saw you
I felt your soft kiss
Your warm touch and embrace
I felt your eyes upon me
When I saw you
I thought it was too good to be true
and I was right
Because now it is gone
It is all with someone else now
When I saw you with her
My heart was torn
But now I realize
I must let you go
I just want you to know
You will are still in my heart
And forever you remain
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The Junk Pile Teddy
I come to you used with no tags or new name,
Through the years I've been around I've never gained much fame.
My jobs have been many throughout my years,
I've heard a lot of laughs and wiped away some tears.
I've sat at the table when it was "tea for two",
And I've been the one blamed when they wanted to know "WHO?".
I've kept all the secrets that just couldn't be said,
And I've protected against the "THINGS" under little ones' beds.
But as they got big I was tossed to the side.
Never did I fear, I took it all with stride,
Because it's for that reason I get to be here,
To start with new laughter, new secrets, and tears.
I'll watch another little one grow healthy and strong,
I'll be a shoulder to lean on when things go wrong.
So please take me and love me all tattered and worn,
And don't worry if through time I get a little torn.
It's all in the job that I was put here to do,
Just on of the joys of being loved by little ones like you.
Written by Sunny Veal for Sydnee McCall Council
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Your kiss is like a soft wind blown across my lips, as you place your hands on my hips. This is a night I wont forget.
As we dance and dance the night away. I never thought it would happen this way, but this is something I can't resist. I never knew it would happen like this.
You take things slow, knowing its my first time. Even though we both know we are committing a crime.
As we embraced each other, knowing what we just did wasn't right, we kissed and hugged each other good night!
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Your Hairspray Now....
Oh the pain....
My eyes are stinging. Burning!
I try to struggle....
Hopeless....
My eyes are being held open....
By metal clips....
My head is held by a vice.
I can't close my eyes!
The chemicals.
They're in the tubes....
Being sprayed in my eyes!
Oh the pain....
My legs....
Cramped in this position for so long....
I can't move.
Can't struggle....
Can't move my ears....
Not that I'd want to....
Just hear the screaming.
Of myself and the others....
I am only a rabbit....
What did I do to deserve this?
The scientists are coming....
I can't see them....
Not through my blindness....
But I can sense them!
Suddenly....
It's all over....
For me....
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The last daylight
The water hits the shore,
It is hard like a boxer.
I run and dive,
Down I dive,
The waves roll over me,
I swim towards the dark,
The wind stiffens,
Still I swim,
Now the wind lessons,
Now I can rise,
The water white caps,
Pressing gently on,
I coast up to shore,
I crash to the shore,
I climb out to watch,
The sun sets like a sinking ship
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There once was a hobo named Brine
Who made his living bootlegging moonshine
He drank sour mash
and lived in the trash
and couldn't walk in a straight line
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There once was a guy named Joe
Who had a gigantic afro
It got shaved down
Hairs fell to the ground
But he was bald at first you know
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What I am
I'm like the wind that hits your face,
I'm like the rose that you trace,
I'm like the dreams that you dream,
And as sweet as your favorite ice cream.
I'm as genteel as the tunes you sing,
And as pure as a diamond ring,
I'm as silent as a shooting star,
And glide like a brand new car.
I'm as calm as a deserted cave,
But can be a roaring wave,
I'm as bright as a forest fire,
But do not show my learning desire.
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There once was a dog named Sam
He had the brains of ham
He peed on my bike
and bit a kid Mike
And a witch turned him into spam.
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They gently hit me,
lightly at first,
As I wade into
the salty water
The sand brushes
my toes as I
slide through
the water
And then I'm
under, into another
world, away from
the breezes
All I can see
from above is
a great ball of
fire, a calm
cool, feeling
of peace
- Beach Boy
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In the gardens all is still.
Only the faintest scratching of pencils can be heard.
Like the claws of mice scraping on the walls.
Sitting on the ground, cool as a clean, fresh pillowcase.
Grass blades tickle my legs like tiny blunt knives.
Surrounded in hot moist air, with my dizzy, aching head floating in the soup.
I smell the scent of roses, blown by the breeze above me.
By M. Katherine Taylor
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Beating the Odds
Last one,
I'm winded,
I get up.
Kids treading
in the water
about a dozen,
just waiting.
"Who's left?"
In unison,
they answer,
"You are."
I'm thinking,
Damn! How am
I going to make it?
"GREEEEN RIVERRR."
I take big breath,
and dive.
They swarm,
like piranhas,
but they can't hold on.
I'm losing air
Finally I reach it
The other side-
I win
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BUCK AND THE DUCK
There was a boy named Buck
he got attacked by a duck.
He told his dad
his dad got mad;
and ran over the duck with a truck
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There once was a dog named Molly,
She was always so happy and jolly.
Here comes a bus,
Molly looked at us,
and now Molly ain't so jolly.
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he shriveled brown fern
Sheds dead leaves upon the pot
The rotting corpse dies
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THE DEER
There once was a little old deer
who was hooked on drinking beer
He got shot in the side
Then they cut off his side
and put a tag in his ear
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THE BEST LIMERICK IN THE WORLD
There once were two men from Crete
Who could not decide what to eat
They would argue and bicker
But never grow thicker
so they died looking somewhat petite
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The trees swing in breeze
They dance during a wild storm
There green and barky
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Butterfly
A flying diva
soaring through drama, it feels
the sky is it's stage
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Flowers
flowers are neat
flowers are sweet
do not eat
my flowers
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we wait for dawning of new day
to wrestle with the world again
we play the game just a small
gear in the big machine we
call humanity. i am here lost in a sea
of humanity. a number i am given
can i make a difference, will i,
an should i. i seek to know the
truth and the wisdom and glory
of love. i seek that moon beam in the night
to guide me to that which is right , so as
my spirit can soar and seek insight. and
i rest in the stillness of the night
waiting for the dawning of a new day
hoping to make a difference for that which is right.
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''Fragments For The Seasons''
The sounds beat our ears in with the flapping of butterfly wings
that ripple through the dawning of day breaking shadows
cutting our hearts out
and pasting them onto our sleeves
as we shrivel up into the coming of springs
warm embrace of weeping cries of smiling sadness.
Copyright 1999 Shilo Brown
If you are interested in more of my poetry write to
the following address to
receive a catalog:The Book Beat Book Shoppe, 2412 S.W. 59th Street, Oklahoma City, Oklahoma 73119
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Away, go, leave, make hence
I start to build again
please step outside the fence
so I am safe within
The walls are invincible
This time I've done it fair
At glance they are invisible
Kept unseen with care
There is peace an quiet here
If which I only sigh
There is nothing that I fear
For the gate is strong and high
Yet when I built I should have known
As they pass me by
I would sit in here alone
Just Me, myself, and I
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Icarus
Soaring high above the earth, I remember how it felt
The cool breeze and warm sun
But all things must come undone
And those wings of wax do melt
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OH, YOU STUBBORN MAN!
CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND?
I DON'T WANT TO PUSH TOO HARD.
I DON'T WANT TO GO TOO FAR.
BUT I DON'T WANT TO WAIT TOO LONG.
TOO SOON THE CHANCE WILL BE GONE.
I JUST WANT TO SHARE THE LOVE
THAT'S BEEN GIVEN FROM ABOVE.
OPEN YOUR HEART AND BE
WITH ME IN ETERNITY.
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That night, I'll never forget.
The curtains were drawn and the stage was set.
No, not a play, just a dance.
When I was feeling down, was that my chance?
The lights were down and the stars were out.
I still can't see what it's about.
Sitting alone on the side of the hall.
And then from heaven an angel did fall.
You came over to me with a smile on your face.
I shrugged and we took our place.
On the dance floor, right in the center.
It was then that my heart you did enter.
I didn't know then, I still can't see how.
But I'm hopelessly in love with you now.
>From that point when I was safe in your hands.
I felt better, and ignored the jeering stands.
And then on the last dance of the night,
You cut off your dance and came into sight.
I sighed and imagined how angry she'd be.
But my eyes were so misted that I couldn't see.
And then it was over, and we all said good bye.
We all left for home in the dark, starry night.
When I got to my room with "that song" in my ears.
It suddenly clicked and dispersed all my fears.
Like a switch going on in my head.
Just like all the fairy tales that I had read.
I smiled and I suddenly knew.
I had hopelessly fallen in love with you.
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PUZZLE OF LOVE
I am back with my love, we are made to be
We " loved, lost and it came back, that's how strong it was"
And this time it will stay, for if not, I surely wont live
Twice on one person is surely enough to hurt you deeply
I would end up hurt and suicidal, like before
But with no one to turn to.
All my friends think we should stay together forever
They wont help, they'll just try to put us back together
Like a puzzle, you can take us apart and always put us back together
But after a while, you get worn out, and the pieces wont fit
For now I'm happy, that's all I want to be
Not a puzzle
Or alone
Just happy
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I NEED YOU NOW
My friend, I need you now - please take me by the hand
Stand my me in my hour of need, take time to understand
Take me hand dear friend, and lead me from this place,
Chase away my doubts and fears, wipe the tears form off my face
Friend, I can't stand alone
I need your hand to hold
The warmth of your gentle touch, in my world that's grown so cold
Please be a friend to me, and hold me day-by-day
Because with your loving hand in mine I know we'll find the way
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What We Once Were...is gone
I scream on the inside, hating me deeply. Hating what you have made of me. You took a part of me from me. A part of you I loved. But you loved me. And I loved you. I didn't want to change you. I just wanted to show you how i think, and believe. You tried, believe me you tried. It isn't your fault, I would have too. I've felt the same. And I know that at the time it feels right, but to the world it is not. When I look at everyone else, and think of how they must think about it; they don't really matter. All I see is one other person. The person I want. No matter what. And now you are gone, far away. Do you hate me? I don't hate you, I don't even know if I wish it were different. But now it all is. And I have to find a way to fix my fallen life.
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The heart is the instrument of pain.
Love the hearts sorrow,
For which it beats continuously.
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As I sit here
my mind begins to wander.
I dream of colorful landscapes
and thick swirling air.
I trudge through the damp lifeless grass
of summers before
and think.
I think of what it would be like
to ESCAPE.
To get away from everything
is a helpful remedy for most things in life.
I hear the faint hum of something soothing.
Though I cant recall the sound,
it comforts me
in a way nothing else can.
Maybe this is an escape route for me.
I really don't know,
but I think I'm now starting to understand.
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Right click on my heart left click on my soul
A flashing icon alerts your presence
on the information super highway
just one voice in a sea of millions
loud enough to come my way
we talk in type for hours on end
we talk in punctuation
I talk and laugh to a monitor
and Internet animation
your warmth and heart in graphic symbols
arrive by satellite
I feel I'm with you on our link up
together apart every night
double click your icon initiating chat
single click your name
you tell me that you missed me
and I feel just the same
my feelings for your typing
grow every day
I can feel the woman in those words
which makes me want to say.....
Right click on my heart
to open all he doors
left click on my soul
and I'm yours for ever more
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Someone New
I saw you with someone new today
You looked happy standing there with him
A pain filled my heart
Why couldn't I have that chance
Now we don't talk anymore
Looking at you causes me too much pain
I always the way I felt for you
The way you responded was a slap to my face
The next day I saw you with someone new
A pain filled my heart
Why couldn't I have that chance
I really don't understand why I feel the way I do
You were special to me one time
I guess my heart won't let that go
There is a hate I have grown for you
But my heart still has a strong love for you
So when I saw you with someone new today
A pain filled my heart
Why couldn't I have that chance
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Neurotic Suburban Cow
It's locked inside the skull,
but the cow's still beautiful.
Blue wind is polyrhythmic-eyed;
gray matters when it's a lie.
Fresh timbales steam in the pasture;
tics bloating to feed the laughter.
The conga line is seamlessly managed
by a smooth ex con named Santa Anna
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Greatest Love
There is no greater love,
Than the one I have for you.
If I ever lost it,
I don't know what I'd do.
I might wander around,
Lonely and lost.
Wondering what could've been
And how much I had lost.
But for now I sit beside you,
My thoughts hidden deep inside.
Hoping I'll stay with you,
Until the end of time.
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Minds in search of untapped logic / Searching darkened crags for a foothold / Blindly stepping towards the abyss / Finding danger, retreats from cold.
Minds in search of untapped wisdom / Diving fathoms, inviting pressure / Air craved, towards the sun, up! / Gains nothing but a breath.
Minds in search of tolerance / Hide locked doors within / Approbation for the chosen only / Conditioned facade harbors sin.
Minds in search of acceptance / Dance to an unfamiliar tune / Fathers eat as Cronos ate / Souls transformed to a fiddler's tune / Minds in search of healing grace / Breech the precipice to seek the sea / Braving the horrors of introspection / ever deeper, ever free
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A powerless force has pushed me away
A voice screams "silence!"
A vision dreams of what to say
The powerless persons arrive with rage
having nothing more to say
The bird answers with a prologue of nothing
and it whispers good-day-
But I see the powerful emptiness that divides the universal
spirits into dreams
As now I speak I leak away from the words - the meaning of which
are lost. Yet past the horizon of misery lies a tree
Standing alone in the expansion of energy - it was forgotten
only hoping that someday it could be seen.
The powerless minds flow like time
And they have nothing more to say
At least not today.
-Zanla 1999
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Virgin Undone
Wind through her hair
Soft chimes, gentle breath
One night of pleasure, mild savage
Beating breast
A wild eyed moon lights her
Ignites her
Finds quality in her skin
I haven't courage to stop
Lost courage to begin
Soft caress requesting union
Searching entry, almost one
And she came to me with the
gentle sweet raging of a virgin undone.
Kirk Brant
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"Awaiting the train"
There you stand
Every morning
Looking at the tacks
You spit on
Again and again
You think what will become of me today
Will some f*cker discover something about me
That I will deny
You enter the car
Seat yourself amongst strangers
Who are all these faces?
That cross my path
My stay
This world
This cold stare is felt by and is everyone
It is getting cold in this car but why?
We are in August
The month of my birth
Did "truth" know what would be for me
Or has "it" no clue as "I"
We learn together
I twist the ring that lies on my finger for relief
A comfort of some-sort
I raise my head and see my reflection in the window
For once it is not distorted
The face I have seen all my life
The face before my parents
Not even the carvings on the window can deny me-yes!
Simple, perfect, complete
This site is
Currently, my hand and pencil are united
Eternal lovers who have just met after being separated at birth
The way my fingers hold the pencil, press the paper, poetry in motion
Because its truth
Truth is what will get me fame
When you approach me
Don't look at my sneakers
Look in my eyes
The key to my soul
Please see me as I am
Not the footwear I fashion
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LIKE
Like a drug it's addicting
Like pain inflicting
my heart,
yet it feels so good.
holding every moment as a priceless jewel.
It's Like my mind and body is in a duel
to see who covers the most ground.
So far my mind has won every round
but I'm beginning to feel light headed
Like the slightest gust of wing could have me lying flat.
Yeah I'm falling between the cracks
and for some strange reason I Like it.
So I ain't trying to stop.
chelsea:)
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For once in my life I felt not so alone
Then I had it taken away
to face the world again...with tears in my eyes
My life forever changed by that one single star
that is forever gone, in the black sky
to a place unknown to man
Now my body's swelling with feelings I have yet to face
for that star...I will never be able to replace
In the sky it'll shine down upon me with its brilliant light
yet I will not know exactly the one from which the brightness comes
but I shall feel its warmth around me like the summer sun
Some days it's just a flicker, yet others an inferno
I wish someday to become a star
shining down upon this Earth
but for now I know that My star
is hovering, eternally forever up above...
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Not a poem Negative but positive
"A strange Poem"
Life is a bowl of diamonds.
Every piece gets cut up and used.
And if you don't do anything with them
they will burst into a roaring blaze.
So walk on the wall with
your hands in your pockets
and your tongue
wrapped around your neck.
And you should stand up for your dookie.
You may be stripped in the middle
of the highway.
Don't jump from bridges higher than 1500 feet
in the air, because if you do that you'll become
part of the Earth's streams, and
you could be a part of the water
life. Well as an under-water ornament.
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The Mask
You tell everyone you've got nothing to hide,
But your eyes tell of secrets buried deep inside.
You put on your mask and get ready to go,
An accomplished actor putting on a show.
You try so hard to impress so few,
Yet I say nothing, for I wear one too.
You wear your mask as well as I wear mine,
But your beautiful eyes will betray you every time.
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(TO FEEL)
Her arms are weak and tired
hair but damaged and frail
eyes sunk low, a drained sea of hopes
but still she feels a love for this life
Tonight she cries
beneath the bathroom sink
beaten but not broken
she remains tonight
Her legs are bruised
the marks of a man
(crazed, dressed in red)
her heart
red with the blood
(so carelessly spilt)
and still, she can feel
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All you said was hello again, and here I sit consumed
with all my thoughts of you, of the you and I that never was
It seams I'm still the child I was, biting my nails to the quick
wondering where you are, only guessing who you're with
How you wreck me with your smile, split me open with a touch
Unlocking secrets hidden so deep, I never knew they thrived
I didn't want to get you forever stuck on me
Like sand between my toes, finding pieces everywhere
am I naive to feel this way, opening old wounds for you
Never feeling vindicated, never knowing if I'm wrong
I could never hear your voice again, if you tell me I'm not wanted
I could never see those broad hands, and not imagine them holding me
don't pretend to love me, now is the moment of truth
I'd rather watch you walk away this time, than to stay and believe in lies
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Moment in Time
Look in my heart, look in my eyes
see what you want to, see only lies.
Try to understand, try to believe
but you give up quickly, turn and then leave.
Gaze at your body, as you walk out that door
legs weaken slowly, and i fall to the floor.
When tears dry on willows, When the sun doesn't shine
When the wind stops blowing, Forever you'll be mine
There's a pain deep inside me, eating away
no one here to love, maybe some other day.
Lonely hours passing, quiet and sad
thinking about you, and what we once had.
No sun touches my skin, only the night
walking without you, living in fright.
When tears dry on willows, When the sun doesn't shine
When the wind stops blowing, Forever you'll be mine
So I wait here for you, not knowing why
cause you'll never be back, we were a moment in time.
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Foggy Life
have you ever found yourself surrounded by fog?
i look around but see the same cloudy image everywhere.
i try to feel my way hoping to find something;
someone that could help me through the myst.
am i just blind, or is the fog real?
the harder i try to see, the more frustrated i become.
i'm mad that i can't leave and i don't know what to do.
i'll keep stumbling along the hidden path beneath my feet
until it evaporates and my confusion clears.
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BURNED
BURNED BY THE FIRE IN YOUR HEART,
FLAMES SCALDING MY SENSITIVE FLESH,
SMOKE CLOUDS YOUR EYES-TEARS FILL MINE,
I CRY OUT FOR YOU
CAN YOU HEAR ME ?
NO! I DIDN'T THINK SO.
SMOTHERED. HELP I CANT BREATH,
SAVE ME PLEASE
THE REMAINS OF MY SOUL HIT THE FLOOR,
SCATTERED ASHES. BLACK CLOUDS FILL MY EYES,
I CANT SEE YOU! ARE YOU HIDING!
WHO ARE YOU ?
WHY DO I REACH OUT TO YOU ?
A TOUCH SO COLD
WILL YOU SAVE ME ?
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My Comforter, literally
Orange fantasies encased beneath
the protective shell,
a membrane layer of transcending warmth.
i stretch
and the mass contorts
to fit every bit of my being.
My tears absorbed
and swallowed by its tangerine
dyed threads.
breath heated
in the cocoon spun with
my slightest twitch and subconscious
disturbance in the dark light,
Its stuffing hiding the hunger, the alone,
the craving for you, the depression.
blanketing me as gently as a mother cradles a baby.
And in the cold of the night
I am at last cherished in its outstretched arms.
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Nameless
I sat down and I did something I haven't done in a while; write. I wanted to write a poem, a novel, or just a sweet paragraph. I couldn't I didn't know now of all the things I have forgotten what it is to release myself. The daylight grew father in my forever solitude as the sun set over my head in its beaming glory. The pen held no in. I couldn't write. My mind filling with ideas but they were to fast to let one casually slide down from my pen on to the blank paper. Is it right to hold this opportunity and to hide it like a blemish and conceal the ideas and thoughts of a growing life? I don not know. In everyone's eyes it is wronged but I saw it as beautiful.
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"Which is His Last?"
The old tree in the night
Stands crooked and proud
Disfigured by time,
He stands in pain
He endures the storms
The unrelentless storms
They cripple the old, rotting tree
Yet he remains
He is beaten into submission
Yet his gives in to no one
But this old tree is weak
And no one will answer the question
"Which storm will be his last?"
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Dream
Walking on the beach in the twilight hours.
Tide flowing in and out in a hypnotic rhythm.
Moon hanging low and the stars ablaze.
A soft delicate hand resting in my own.
Standing as the water rushes around our bare feet.
Her arms now around my neck.
I stare deep into her twinkling green eyes.
I caress her smooth angelic cheek,
And touch my lips softly to hers
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ILLUSION
A cover of identity
A role that must be played
Deep beneath the make-up
The mask will surely fade
Not hiding anymore secrets
Not hiding anymore pain
Your true identity will be revealed
When you step into the rain
It will wash away the script
And take away the lies
Make-up is an illusion
That is meant to fool the eyes.
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Unblemished Heart
Dare I stain the unblemished heart
that travels willfully through the undergrowth of paranoia
Seeking solitude in rain swept forests
I follow her as she dances on the tips of golden wings
Faith she has in abundance
innocence bursting with exuberance
no chance for I to rekindle that feeling
but for now I shall draw my strength from her passion
Silently I safeguard her from the madness
for her spirit commands the right to such protection
Am I the fool for trailing in her shadow
hoping for a chance to feel her breath upon my lips
Will insanity prevail on the weakest one of all
will I loose it once again in the way I did before
Faith I have none in abundance
innocence no longer bursting with exuberance
what chance for I to rekindle that conception
so for now I shall draw my hope from her enthusiasm
James Ryan 1999
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Animals
The horse sang the blues, the duck danced tap,
The goat was singing opera, the was rapping rap.
The sheep were eating grass, while the cows were jumping rope,
The geese were in the bathtub with their watermelon soap.
The cat was on the phone while the mice were potting plants,
The monkeys were in the greenhouse, and doing a funky dance.
I could go on and on but I do not have the time,
To be thinking of these animals, and their very silly rhymes.
By, Kristin Sahawneh
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WHO LOOKED?
Who looked to see me, no one dwelled near my soul?
What heart broke for me, as I cast a stone?
Who wore who down by what stride?
Shallow thoughts were given, within my breath they did not lie.
Mistaken was I for something else. Tricked in some way was something I am not.
What evil possesses the words carefully laid upon your tongue?
Did I endeavor for this or did it fall upon my name?
Memory serves with fate such glimpses of a life fought with frustration to forget the weary words.
So the heart lies wrenched by scars for me, do I forget it or just become marred by my destiny?
The title put upon me bares less truth then the soul in which I am.
By Melissa Archibald Copyright 1998
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How Long
Alone she cries throughout the night
Her tears she sheds as it darkens
The hurts passed over, every slight
And no one there to harken
Pains of the past, ripped open new
The hurts and scars now bleed
One's forgotten now fresh as dew
And no one there to heed
How long will we cause sorrow to grow
By thoughtless words and deeds
Then turn out eyes away just so
Never to take heed.
tracy
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Nevermore
Why stand in a world of hate when you can stand in the glow of love in an
Everlasting night feeling all but one thing not believing
you could feel the forbidden.
You feel it and hear it all around you, just not
experiencing the true purity of the word and it's true
existence.
Just to feel the soft, loving touch of your lips on me
just to hold and caress your body, perfect and beautiful in
every way imaginable. But to have it all end in an abrupt
way.
Never would I believe I could not hold you and feel the tingle you gave. I can't realize, I can't the love I felt anymore.
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The Baby
He's so innocent.
Not knowing the crimes.
He's so trusting.
Not knowing of the let downs.
He smiles.
Not knowing the tears.
He sees the light.
Not knowing the dark.
He has a big heart.
Not knowing of the part.
He's a able adviser.
Not knowing of the unable listener.
He's perfect.
Not knowing of the jokes.
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POETS
The children of fire
all have the same desire.
To express
with finesse
the spirit that's admired.
With a soulful of feeling
they begin to reel in
the thought
that's not taught
that can touch a million.
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Adam and Eve consumed by impulse had chosen to live in sin.
She would have had to change her name; but they were known to be akin.
Sheriff Keane should have found a way, to make them separate.
They lived near Millers Trestle alongside of highway eight.
Those two fought all day long; they simply could not arrange a truce,
but using his forty five seventy, really was abuse.
She must have driven Adam mad when she nagged him on that day.
For when Adam took up his rifle, He did intend to slay.
Shoot, load, and run, and you can't keep a bead, in spite of your desire.
Whenever he shot, Eve would duck or weave, I guess she feared hellfire.
He was used to having things his way, but couldn't seem to clear the slate.
She ran here and there around the farm. Eve would never accept her fate.
He sat down to rest on the chopping block, and determined to destroy the seed.
With the gun in his mouth, and some kindling on the trigger, Adam did succeed.
When sheriff Keane saw the scene, he assumed the day had been too hot.
Young Joe came by in time to see, Adam's brain spread across the lot.
While they scooped up poor old Adam, sheriff Keane stopped to comfort Eve.
Maybe that's the time Blalock picked it up, and slipped it in his sleeve.
Later in the bar Joe showed a shiny pocket piece, and his story wasn't dull.
Blalock said, "The proof the Lord spared Eve, is this piece of Adam's skull!"
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Falling down.
Breathing out.
Never have to
breathe again.
Falling down.
Raging shout.
Never have to
scream again
Never have to live again,
never have to die.
Never have to cry again,
without knowing why.
Same fake, smiling face,
playing the part of a perfect child.
Same bloody mirror frame,
as the child
sleeps awhile.
Never have to live again.
Never have to die.
Never have to cry again
without knowing why.
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ALL THAT IS YOU
.Because of a tremendous response, this Open Mic has
been split into two parts. Click on
Part Two for the continuation of March sessions.
You are so silent,
You speak with your eyes,
Intent on my lips,
Hearing my lies.
I cannot love you,
You mean to much,
I cannot hold you,
There's longing in that touch.
And I will cry,
Understand that it's true,
For all that I can't have,
All that is you.
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FOR HIM THAT I LOVE....
You dream in colors,
I cannot see,
And yet you let me know them.
You take long showers,
Filled with cherry soap,
And sometimes you let me bathe with you.
You braid my hair,
With your long fingers,
And make me want to kiss you.
You're intrigued by my toes,
As am I yours,
And we let them dance together.
You hold me in storms,
Making me safe,
And then I adore you.
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Someone Else
Have you ever wished you were someone else?
someone other than yourself
Have you ever wanted to get away?
to be someone else, just for a day
Does it seem like your lane is always jammed?
and everything you do is always dammed
Do you always seem to catch the red light?
and you can never seem to do anything right
Do you always try to make everyone happy, not sad?
but someone always turns out mad
If i change my name
would you treat me the same?
If i changed my face
how would i see this place?
If i changed my beliefs
would my mind be anymore deep?
If i was someone else
would i wish i was myself?
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THE TEARS ON MY FACE STAIN MY PILLOW
AS MY HEART SLOWLY BEGINS TO BREAK
I REMEMBER ALL THE FUN WE HAD ALL THE LAUGHTER
ALL THE JOY.
I LOOK BACK AND SEE A LITTLE BOY WHO WOULD FIGHT FOR
ME.
I HAVE GREAT MEMORIES OF EVENING TALKS WITH JOYFUL
LAUGHTER IN BETWEEN.
I NOTICE A BOY WHO NEEDS PROTECTION AND SHELTER FROM THE DARK
I SEE A BOY WHO SHELTERED ME
AND CARED WHEN A GUY BROKE MY HEART.
I SEE A BOY WHO LOOKED UP TO ME BECAUSE I WAS HIS SISTER
AND NEEDED ME TO SAVE ALL MY LOVE FOR HIM.
HE NEEDED ME AND I NEEDED HIM
BUT TIMES CHANGED AND YET WE'VE SORT OF
GROWN APART HE DOESN'T KNOW IT YET
BUT THE GROWING UP BROKE MY HEART!
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Eyes of Demise
Poised in perfect posture,
Her deep glare of ominous darkness
Shines into, and threw me-
Past my sight and into other
Rivers of thought,
Hypnotizing my stare.
Like a virgin lake with intimate water,
She dives into me
Quickly devouring
Every thought and idea;
Engulfing my soul.
With no escape from her Medusa eyes,
My bones are hard with cold.
Slowly digesting my last remains,
Her eyes squint
Closing off this world-
Leaving me dried up
And dead.
As purrs echo in the silence-
She sits satisfied with her slay.
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WITH SADNESS
I thought I was over you
and that I could be strong
But then,
I saw you tonight
and became weak again
You always do that to me.
I miss you now
more then ever
I'm watching the moon outside my window
I wonder
where is your moon tonight?
Is it where your heart is,
high above the sky
in total darkness
impossible to reach?
Yes with sadness I grieve for you
However, this is the last time my darling
These are the last lines,
I will ever write for you again.
Genevieve Hargis
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If I could learn to love you less,
the winds that blow in autumn hue
along the lonely avenue
would not recall the memories
of slender hands, piano keys,
a Chopin nocturne in the dark,
midsummer evening in a park,
a classic play and poetry
and modern paintings of the sea.
All these would lose their loveliness,
if I could learn to love you less.
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I scream,
no one hears me.
I cry,
no one comforts me.
I slip,
I hold on tight.
I fall,
no one catches me.
I land,
no one helps me up.
I lay there in pain,
someone comes.
They hold out their hand,
I grab hold.
They help me up,
then let me fall back down in my pain.
I lay there still, confused, and lost,
I die and fade away,
will anyone notice?
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My Heart Belongs to You
I still think of you as an angel
Despite the rejection
The one I adore
Finding no imperfection
I began to love you more
Everything you do
And those times when you speak
I look at you
And it makes me weak
I practically worship
The ground you walk on
Get down on my hands and knees
To beg for your affection
I am sure you notice me looking in your direction
So maybe I'm crazy
Infatuated too
But my heart is breaking
And my soul is aching
Because my heart
Belongs to you
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I saw you in my tears
do you care they fall like rain?
I saw you in the smoke
that was meant to ease my pain.
I saw you in the fire
that burned the blackest coal.
I saw you in my heart
a perfect picture of your soul.
I saw your lips touch hers
and my thoughts turned to grieve.
If you could see yourself through me
would you be glad you can deceive???
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Angel
Smile when you feel like crying,
Laugh when you feel great rage.
Cry when they kill your best friend,
......Clap when they're on the stage.
Hug them when you want to stab them,
Rape their minds of impure thoughts.
Leave them lingering in your footsteps,
......Scream when you hear gunshots.
Give when you're really hungry,
Eat only what is left.
Smile when you're really wanting,
......Leave behind internal darkening.
Sigh when you're suicidal,
Pray when your heart is bleeding.
Scream when you hear them laughing,
......Smile you're an Angel glistening.
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A Little girl's song
Go to sleep little girl your in your own world now.
Go to sleep little girl 'till the one who loves you
comes.
Daddy lays to close to you, mommy''s never home.
Sissy went to Montague, grammy went to Rome.
Betty Boop is in the trash, you dumped mommy's fake nail kit.
Daddy's gonna beat your @$$, you don't need to take this
$#!+.
Go to sleep little girl, your in your own world now.
Go to sleep little girl, 'till the one who loves you
comes.
Daddies gone to work, and you haven't ate all day,
So you and fluffy ate dads stash,
now in your bed you lay and lay.
Go to sleep little girl, your in your own world now.
Go to sleep little girl, 'till the one who loves you comes.
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I AM JUST HERE
I am just here, standing, wanting you to come closer.
I am just here, sitting, waiting for you to sit beside me.
I am just here, lying, waiting for you to lie next to me,
and I am just here, crying, weeping in devastation, because
I gave you my heart and you threw it back in my face.
So I am just here, crying still, and I am just here lying,
alone without you near me, and I am just here, sitting,
pleading for you to come back to me, and I am just here,
standing, watching you walk away, and still you don't see
that without you I am nothing, therefor without you, I am just here.
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"Broken Heart"
By: Christy Swift
A broken heart hurts far more
than anything I felt before.
As your love just walked out the door
Tears from my eyes started to pour.
Where all the words that I loved and cherished,
lies from your mouth that just up and perished.
I enjoyed the times we spent together,
even though it soon became stormy weather,
Now our love floats in the wind like a feather.
Unsure of where it's going, but knowing that it'll never return.
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colors of nature's sound
watery starlit sky ablaze in a celestial mound
the sweet diadem of athenae lifted to bring down nature's brag
white and powerful, foaming breath, the heavenly stag,
pull back her bow to loose the arrow straight and fast,
as it stings the air and brings wrath in its blast,
escape for nature's greatest beast,
the magnificent one avoiding the feast,
she watches his fiery eyes glow in anger,
she the goddess for a moment fills with danger,
but then her weapon finds the place,
the brilliant creature falls from grace,
his eyes grow dark in mysterious quiet,
the stag is dead and it is the end of souls' riot.
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~apathy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
he doesn't ponder he doesn't reflect
so how can he learn from one day to the next
he lashes out with wicked tongue
although my heart is tender and young
he doesn't ponder he doesn't reflect
just inflicts pain then promptly forgets
no hesitations no repents
that's why i haven't more tears they've all been spent
~~~~~~~~~~~~~by veronica ann graciano~~~~~~~~~
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I sit alone
My heart beats slow
the love i felt, i feel no more
so sorry am i, for all the times i did cry
that is why i say goodbye.
this world can do without one more fool,
a pitiful heart that broke in two
alone and scared
i feel prepared
to end this all in just one fall.
your lies, i thought would never hurt
deep inside my soul you burnt.
love to you is just a game
love to me is a deadly shame
and with this thought
as i lie in the rain
i take this pain to my grave.
for if it wasn't for love
my life i could save and with this pain
i say goodbye.
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FORGET ME
turn around
you'll find me there
among the shadows
Of your despair
bound to your obsession
claimed by your hate
save me from your ending phase
before it's too late
give my heart back to me
you're not strong enough to change
it's walls are strong against you
built with nothing but your hate
free me from this hell
in which you chose to be condemned
it's not my choice to be here
i cannot pay for your sins
you walked away from my heaven
to burn within your misery
i can live without you
if only you'd forget me....
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MODERN WAYS
Prophets of old
dream of yonder time
In our modern age
wisdom without a dime
Men will pray thee
time without end
As for such things
heaven will not send
So men will fight
and many will kill
All will claim
"it's GODS will"
The war road
we all do track
destroy ourselves..
Never look back
These words of wisdom, take to heart, in order to live, do your part
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RETREAT
deep in the woods
my heart finds shelter in the moss
I shudder
it's earthy scent beckons my nostrils
a single lark mourns overhead
my voice finds a song
branches quiver in the soft whisper of the wind
I am humbled before my Creator
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She was innocent
Did she fill your desire?
A young girl
Did she light you on fire?
It has been hard to accept
Knowing what you've done
I don't know if I can consider you
My one and only son
You committed murder
Now look at your tears
All you have created
Is more and more fears
Was it for rape?
Was it for money?
It wasn't that long ago
That I called you my honey
You were raised with good morals
And this is how you show
I should of realized it
I didn't even know
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Dear God,
You're always here 4 me
You've always been here
even when i turned my back
and tried 2 find a different way
Dear God,
You sent 2 me, 4 me
a friend who in a way
is an angel
2 help me see the way
Dear God,
it didn't come 2 me
until a trip with her
to Your House of Worship
Dear God,
and after a dream that
i believe You sent
2 me
i found the way
Dear God,
Thank You, 4 this gift
Thank You, 4 Laura
Thank You, 4 always loving me
and thank You, 4 so much more
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The Things I've Always Thought
If I could put into words
The things I've been meaning to say
Life would be so much easier
For me to live each day
As these words hide within my heart
They seem to be getting scrambled
And don't know where to start
To say the things I've always thought
Tracy J. Pettyjohn
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in the shadows of closed eyes
as clear as the day
from the dark comes a light
i stop to think
could this be a dream
or could this be reality
somewhere in between
the only daisy in the park
i walk a braid through the tiring trees
taken along by a song through the breeze
it took me to beauties never known
for centuries long left all alone
sad was her song
the only daisy in the park
why do you cry a breath disbelief
she cries to the world that she's never seen
i bend to kiss the petals that sway
for one day the world will watch us play
meaning of my life
the only daisy in the park
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Silence
(by Dark)
wild bells
silent now
infinite hells
no longer roar
moment of silence
in a field of sound
though death is silence
and silent we are
no yell
no scream
sound has fell
discard the old
another in charge
our spirits sold
slaves to silence
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Ever since I was a child of ten
I've had the very best of friend
She may be tall and I admit, she is loud
so you'll never lose her in a crowd
Our friendship rope is very tight
you can tug and pull with all your might
Sometimes we feel like undoing it
but somehow we work our way through it
Only we can untie it
but still we dare not try it
We're together all the time
We play, ride bikes, and dine
Best friends forever more
I'll be there to open a door
If she falls and gets scraped up
I'll be there to doctor her up
She can always count on me
Wherever I may be
I will get to her as fast as I can
Even if I'm in a different land
As we near the end of every day
I never forget to say
I ask the Lord every night
shine on her with his light
Still when we are 90 years old
We'll be inside out of the cold
And I can guarantee
best friends we'll still be
My sister is my very best friend
Our friendship together will never end
Even if we are apart
She still remains with me; in my heart
So I ask the Lord to keep her safe and out of danger
The way he did Jesus in a manger
"I couldn't live without her" I pray
She made me what I am today
Even if she is my sister
If something happened to her I sure would miss her
She is my very best friend too
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FADE TO BLACK
Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it to late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye
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Justin & Jessica
Special and precious he is to me,
My brother, Justin, longs to be,
Just like any other kid,
But can't because of something God did.
God makes me suffer,
With pain like no other.
I know I'm losing him,
And it's making my life dim.
This disease we have is bad.
Worse than any cold you've had.
It eats away our muscles, you see,
Although you cannot tell by me.
It's there, believe me--I should know.
That's why I get so cold in the snow.
That's why my brother is so light.
Every day is a serious fight.
We could give up and say "Who cares?"
And become lifeless and hard to bear,
But what's the fun in that,
When you can swing a baseball bat?
All these things we take for granted:
Not Justin his life is slanted.
And then I think It's not so bad."
I think of Jessica and, oh how sad.
This past February she passed away.
Twelve years old and she couldn't stay.
She had the M.D. too,
And the cutest smile I ever knew.
Why did Justin have to get something like this?
To teach something to me, his sis.
Life IS worth living no matter how long;
Just hum a tune and someoooone will sing your song.
Dedicated to my brother Justin Knoblauch and in memory of little Jessica Kohrt!
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Dark and cold is a lonely soul
nothing is complete, nothing is whole
alone i sit waiting for you
come to me, may our love renew
Our love was strong and it held me tall
without you, i'm destined to fall
i need your arms, to hold me tight
come to me, warm my soul tonight
The days we had have come to an end
the love we shared is gone with the wind
and still i long for your embrace
come to me, let love mine sorrow replace
Dark and cold is my lonely soul
without you i feel no whole
on i must move, without you here
stay form me, being alone no longer i fear
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Touch.
Knowingly I walk above my heart, feeling the touch of everything and the soul of eternity.
I faced fear with out knowing of my hearts desire.
Though I look free I was trapped in my own world.
Flying high above the sky looking down at the world be low me.
Knowing I have all I need and give all I could.
For just a minute I knew me.
As I come to the beautiful moon the silent orb is raising the light.
I feel the warmth against my skin.
Though do we all feel it the same?
The flowers smelt fresh as the day they bloomed.
Can't we all free ourselves to the nature and beauty of things?
Life can't be waste and though I know I do sometimes we must remember all little things to the fullest.
What might be the end is only the beginning.
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No Name
Running through a field of black
There is no were to get to,
No way to get back
Dancing our way through time,
Turning back the years
Turning back my life
You broke the Camels back,
Treated me so earthly fresh,
Spread like cancer through my system
It changed my life and heightened yours
Have you come down the ladder?
O'elegant one do you still rein
Never did you make it,
A flop to your success
Your gone, to a place of new people
I wonder is you got there,
I wonder where you are
For cold aspirations circle my being
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